Crazy is as Crazy Does

Have you ever not fit the mold? I haven’t fit in 50 plus years and you know what? I am fine with that. Living outside the box does come with complications and obstacles.

In my youth, I was seen as a problem child, too rebellious, to talkative, unable to follow directions... well you get the idea. I had friends so I couldn’t have been that odd. As I got older I tried things that interested me. I swam, played field hockey, played softball, love old movies, Emerson, Henry David Thoreau, Shakespeare, Boons Farm Wild Mountain wine
, good herb and Salem cigarettes. The mid 70’s was an odd coming of age era. Living outside the box at that point in one’s life did not affect in any major way.

It wasn’t until the ending of my 2nd marriage that the complications and obstacles became truly apparent. In my mid 30’s, divorced for the 2nd time and actually felt good about the situation I found myself in. I had absolutely no marketable skills what so ever. I had little to no money. So I set out on my own for the first time in my life. I opened my wings and took off, the way I wanted to.
I was living in Atlanta GA, and packed up my meager belongings and moved to Southern Virginia. Still with no marketable skills, I decided to get my insurance license and give that a go. Selling insurance came easy to me and I was good at it. I soon tired of selling insurance. I was now living in Northern Virginia on the Potomac and decided to become a waitress. I really like serving others and again, I was very good at it.

After almost 2 years of living in Virginia, it was time to move on. Pennsylvania was my next stop. That is where I grew up. I was about to become a grandmother and wanted to be closer to my daughter. To earn my keep in PA, I found a job selling computer programs for construction companies via the telephone. Guess what? I was good at it.

Fast forward ahead, here I am living in Illinois, just across the river from St. Louis. I am now in my mid 40’s working in corporate cubicle life. I like what I do, yet I still live outside the box. And yes, it still gets me in trouble. I just returned to my cubicle life 2 weeks ago after a 5 months absence. I came back to my yearly review (it was to be given to me prior to my leave of absence). The review was the most abysmal review I have ever had in my life. I should have been fired. But I wasn’t. A Manager said they wanted me and my skills in their department. My skills? My skills? I have skills? The skill this manager was speaking about was my ability to see outside the box, to find creative solutions to problems, the ability to speak with anyone whilst making them comfortable.
So here I am, still marching to my own beat, unable to completely conform to the “norms” of society, stronger than ever and happier than most everyone I come into contact with at work.

Give me unconventional anytime.

I guess the point of this rambling is to let people know that it is okay to be different. Being different, eccentric, odd and the crazy old lady on the block makes you far more interesting that the clones you pass everyday, with the vacant look in their eyes and a smile lacking from their face.


Embrace yourself for being you, Unique, Interesting, Daring.. knowing you have earned the wrinkles of life.

"You Like Me, You Really Like Me"

I have just received a 2nd Award!!

Attitude & Gratitude Award -

Many thanks to Caryl aka Charms Of Light for nominating me for this award!! I am humbled and speechless.. except for 2 words--- Thank You.

I must pass this award on as the rules say - comment on this blog; cut and paste the award logo and use it on your own blog; nominate 5 to 10 blogs you feel show great attitude and gratitude; link to your nominees within your blog post; comment on their blogs to let them know they received the award; link back to the person who gave you the award to show your appreciation.



Now, my nominations for this award are:

All About The Energy
Xavierism
Sophie Lhoste Healing
Reiki Awakening
The Meaning of Existence (and all that): The Curmudgeon’s Guide to Spirituality

A Lovely Blog Award!

I have been blessed with A Lovely Blog Award from Charms Of Light! Thank you much Charms, I am so excited! I am honored.. this is my first award.. ever!!

So.... for the rules:

1. Accept the award, post it on your blog together with the name of the person who has granted the award, and his or her blog link.

2. Pass the award to 15 other blogs that love and/or have newly discovered.

3. Remember to contact the bloggers to let them know they have been chosen for this award.

4. Use the One Lovely Blog award picture from my blog, on your blog to let everyone know that you have one lovely Blog!

Well now, here are the blogs I choose. I know there aren't 15 of them, but they are quality!

Lupus Girl Goes Raw
Reiki Changes Things
Zen2Day
Grounding with a tree
ORGANIC GARDENING: Indoor Container Gardening

Are We The Man In The Mirror?

I, like millions of people around the globe, watched the memorial for Michael Jackson. Each have their own opinion about Michael the man, father, son, brother, entertainer and child. I say child because to me, Michael was so childlike even at 50 years old. He had so much love in his heart that the more he gave of himself, even more would be replenished within him.
I was not a fanatical Michael Jackson fan. I was an average fan. I enjoyed his music, was in awe of his dancing and respected him for his philanthropic nature.
Was he odd? Yes, he had his odd moments just as we all do. Difference was that his were made public due to our insatiable need to be morbidly curious.
Did I find it odd that Michael shared his bed with children? Yes, I did and still do. Do I understand it? Yes, where Michael is concerned, I think I do understand his mode of thinking.

Stay with me on this. It strikes me odd that all of the Jackson children have a very soft spoken voice to them. They all seemingly have such a pure and good spirit to them. None seem to be struck with the arrogance that so many celebrities take on, especially Michael. With Michael knowing that his every move was photographed, taped and recorded what arrogance he would have to possess to think that he could molest children and get away with it. It so goes against the character of Michael. Was it inappropriate for him to share his bed with children, yes, in our world views and limitations, most definitely yes?
To me, it was as if Michael would live and relive his childhood through the children that he surrounded himself with. Michael was a genius when it came to music and concepts when on stage. Off stage, he remained a lonely man-child searching for a lost child, himself.

When I learned of Michael’s death, I was shocked, saddened, then a wave of relief fell over me as I knew that Michael would finally have the peace and the childhood he so desperately yearned for.

Everyone has their own opinion of Michael Jackson, as do I. I am not trying to say mine is the correct one, but it is the correct one for me.

I will miss your amazing spirit, the love you gave so freely and for all that you brought to my life. We grew up together Michael. Thank You Michael.

It's Never Too Late To Teach an Old Dog New Tricks

Live to Learn and Learn to Live.

These were the words that adorned the corners of my Junior High School at Governor Mifflin. They were a present from my parents graduating class,to the school district way back in the day.


Those 7 words intrigued me from the moment I could read. I passed by that building often, as it was on the main street of my town, Shillington PA.
Today, as a 50 year old woman, I am finally UNDERSTANDING the words and meaning held within them.

I have been off from work for the past 6 months and will be returning to the cubicle I call home from 7:00a.m. - 4:00p.m. on Monday, July 13th. During these past 6 months, I have been re-evaluating, re-vamping and re-storing my inner strength as well as my outer self. In reality, I have been heading in a new direction for the past year, but just amped it up these last 6 months.

I have embraced Reiki and Qigong with their benefits urging me on. Never have I felt so at peace and full of love as I do now. With each new day, I become more connected with the universe and feel the abundance of energy and compassion towards all.
I have met some amazing people through Twitter, Reiki and through happenstance. I am so thankful for all the connections I have made, for they have ALL helped me in my growth as a person.

I especially want to acknowledge my husband, Frank Dickinson. A woman could not ask for a better partner, husband, friend, cheerleader, companion or teacher than Frank. His unwavering support of me, no matter what the endeavor is an inspiration. For almost 14 years, he and I have been on this path together, growing in mind, body, spirit and unconditional love.

Thank you Frank, for who you are and who I am because of you.

On Monday, July 13th, I will be returning to my position at a company that I firmly believe in. They will be receiving a better version of RuthAnn. My wish is to make the universe proud of my growth thus far.


Learn to Live and Live to Learn

Open Up and Say Ahhhhhhhhh

July 1, 2009 Wednesday 5:27 p.m.

As I always do after an Attunement, I sit here at my keyboard to document my experience. I just received my Kundalini Reiki Level III Attunement.
Wow… what an open feeling I am left with. I liken it to the feeling I have after finishing Qi Gong. I feel taller, lighter and just very open.
A few minutes into the attunement, I felt the energy spiraling up my spine, in a circular motion. I could feel my spinal column sway side to side as the energy moved upward. It was moving like your body moves when you hear a piece of music that makes you move from the waist up.
After the circular motion ceased, I felt the energy moving freely up and down my chakras. Up and down, up and down, up and down. It seemed to be lifting me up in my chair... sitting more erect, posture improved, breathing steady and smooth.
My left eyeball began to bounce up and down… my sinuses opened and I began to smell the sweet scent of moss and earth. My ears opened and I could hear sounds with a clarity I have not had in a long time. From my 3rd eye, a large winged bird emerged pulling the energy through me out into the universe. I then saw a bright white light, a very peaceful comforting light that was sending energy back to me, into my 3rd eye and down my body. I would then feel the energy coming back up my body, being returned to the universe. Slowly the sending and sharing of the energy slowed to a gentle halt.
Allowing the energy to settle, I meditated for a few moments, making sure I had received the entire gift being sent to me. I opened my eyes stretched my body, stood to the most wonderful open & refreshed sense of myself… very open, in mind, body and spirit.

Namaste